Where Do I Go From Here?
So I find myself sitting at the computer again. Why not blog? I think to myself, and hence another entry. A whole two weeks has gone by since my last post. That is a record that I’m not to proud of. But I have spent those two weeks writing an entry in my head, so I now put it to paper for you. Here goes nothing!
I have been watching people. On the TV, in stores, just about everywhere. They all seem fairly happy with there lives, so at first I thought that I might just be weird. But after stewing on it for a while I realize that I am saner than I thought. For a long time I have felt a weird hole thing in the pit of my soul. I now realize what that hole is. I want more. If you could hear me speak these words you would immediately understand how I feel. I want so much more than what I have in life, not that I’m unhappy, but… well, I want to be a Gorge Washington or a William Shakespeare! Everybody knows who they are, I want everyone in the world to know the name Danielle Frankland, and I want to be known for something extraordinary! I don’t want to live life and die. I want to be known! I don’t want to be the extra in the background! I want to be the star in the front! I want to live life to its fullest, I want to be the lead singer in a band, I want to invent something, I want to… I don’t know exactly what I want, but I know I want it. My problem is that I don’t know how to get it. I guess I will leave that to God. But when He opens up the door, I will be there to leap through. This entry is almost a prayer; Show me what to do God! I want so much, and if you will help me, I know I can get it! Please help me…
I don’t know… I feel out of place in this world. Other people seem happy enough. Maybe I just need to slap myself a couple times and stop thinking about it. You know Britney Spears is known ‘round the world too, but I don’t want to be known like that…
Well I guess I’m done blabbing. LOL, I am out of breath. :>
LOL, Until I figure out what my problem is,
♥Danielle♥
With a God like we have and a desire like this you only need to ask him to chisel out of you what he created you for...Sometimes it takes a while for Him to carve it out and sometime it may seem like its painful.
Are you willing? He is so big and loves you so very much.
I think you are awesome Danielle and I love you.
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Wow. This post is above all my favorite that you have written. With a family like you have, and the brain power and personality you have you don't have to worry about goin far...God has an awesome plan for you, I know it. Sometimes the best things happen to us when we're not looking...always remember that. God sends blessings your way everyday no matter how small they may seem, sometimes to small to really notice but I promise He sends 'em. Its cool to me that your thinkin about that stuff already and that you mean it. I'll tell you, you and your family have been a blessing beyond compare and I love you all.
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Wow. This post is above all my favorite that you have written. With a family like you have, and the brain power and personality you have you don't have to worry about goin far...God has an awesome plan for you, I know it. Sometimes the best things happen to us when we're not looking...always remember that. God sends blessings your way everyday no matter how small they may seem, sometimes to small to really notice but I promise He sends 'em. Its cool to me that your thinkin about that stuff already and that you mean it. I'll tell you, you and your family have been a blessing beyond compare and I love you all.
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