God is so amazing. I really really can’t stress that as much as I would like to in a blog entry. He is so awesome!! How can people not believe in our God when he does amazing things like giving me us little tingling signs that he is with us? I love speech class sooooo much because I love hearing Mrs. Howletts[sp?] little verses and stories she gives us. You wouldn’t believe how close I get to tears nearly every Friday.  How does God know to have her speak on exactly the subjects I need to hear? Wait… that was a stupid question. Oh man. Now I’m crying. I never cease to be so utterly amazed by the things he is doing. Little mistakes turned into more ways to worship him and give myself totally to him. I am such a liar. You [hopefully] really can’t tell that I’m drowning but realized as of the last couple of times I’m around lots of people, I feel like I’m drowning. I need silence. That’s what I’ve realized. I glorify God with silence. That is how I worship God. Silence. I glorify God with utter surrender of speech and sight. I close my eyes and God is right there. He’s right there! Silence. It’s so amazing. I like that word can you tell? I’ve been… moody lately. That’s the only word I can come up with to describe my feelings. Moody. But I see now that it’s not me being moody, I need space! And silence! It so awesome that I glorify God best in silence when I’m such a talker. Oh my gosh. God is so incredible.

Definition: Incredible

1.     Beyond belief: impossible or very difficult to believe.

2.    Amazing: very surprising.

Incredible. Perfect word. Beyond belief. Maybe that’s why so many people are lost and not able to believe in God. Because he is beyond belief. I mean think about it. Beyond belief. Not believable. Totally incomprehensible. WHOA! Cool word.

Definition: Incomprehensible

1.     Impossible or very difficult to believe.

How perfect? My word. Of the day. Incomprehensible. Sweet. Silence, I worship God in silence. how cool. I mean, I've always known that I loved quite time, time to relax and read my Bible, but I didn't realize how much I really need and love it. How funny.

Maybe I’m done ranting. Though I believe I could go on for a looooong time. I wish I was closer to God, but I look back at when I first said that and I’ve come so far. I got the train started,[to use a stupid analogy] now I just need to keep it going, and I’m gonna need a lot more coal.

Whoa that was cheesy. Anyone for some Colby?

This song is my song right now. Can you see me between the lines? I can see some of you. Every stinking time I hear this song I cry. I love songs you can relate to!

"Breathe You In"

Taking hold, breaking in
The pressures all need to circulate
Mesmerized and taken in
Moving slow, so it resonates
It's time to rest, not to sleep away
My thoughts alone, try to complicate
I'll do my best, to seek you out
And be myself, and not impersonate

[Chorus:]
I tried so hard to not walk away
And when things don't go my way
I'll still carry on and on just the same
I've always been strong
But can't make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming
I'm so tired of running
'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breath you in
I want to breathe you in

I'm going in, so cover me
Your compass will, help me turn the page
The laughing stock, I'll never be
Because I won't let them take me

[Chorus]

Took awhile to see all the love that's around me
Through the highs and lows there's a truth that I've known
And it's you

I've always been strong
But can't make this happen
'Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
The fear of becoming
I'm so tired of running
‘Cause I need to breathe, I want to breathe you in
I want to breathe you in
I want to breathe you in
I want to breathe you in
I want to, I want to
I want to breathe you in
I wanna breathe