I have to post the lyrics to this song because I'm obsessing over it right now. I went crazy and listened to it on repeat about 30 times the other day. I'm insanely obsessed!

Side note-Guys, seriously, if one more person comes up to me and says "Hey, did you know you spelled Innermost wrong on your blog?" I'm going to commit murder. IT'S SPELLED WRONG ON PURPOSE! Holy cow!

Yours to Hold
Skillet

I see you standing here
But you're so far away
Starving for your attention
You don't even know my name

You're going through so much [Ooo, sounds just like me…]
But I know that I could be the one to hold you

[Chorus:]
Every single day
I find it hard to say
I could be yours alone
You will see someday [My personal fav part]
That all along the way
I was yours to hold
I was yours to hold

I see you walking by
Your hair always hiding your face
I wonder why you've been hurting
I wish I had some way to say

You're going through so much
Don't you know that I will be the one to hold you

[Bridge:]
I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
You should know
I'm ready when you're ready for me
And I'm waiting for the right time
For the day I catch your eye
To let you know
That I'm yours to hold

[Altro:]
I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
I'm ready when you're ready for me

…I put my hands up, they’re playing my song, I know it’s gonna be OK-Miley Cyrus

Ok, ok, I know I call myself a member of the Teen-Gurls-Against-Miley club, but I really like Party in the U.S.A.! I’m sorry! It’s just so dang catchy! And you know what else? I don’t feel bad about liking it! I don’t like anything else to do with Miley Cyrus so I’ll allow myself one guilty pleasure. Hmph.

Hmmm it’s Saturday morning…and I have nothing to do. Believe it or not I prefer a Saturday like this as opposed to a busy one. I’m one of those chicks that is totally happy ith a full day of nada and her iPod. Oh yes. That’s my ideal day. The perfect day in my mind is the day that all the people I love are around me and I have my music. Oh, and its cold outside. I mean in my perfect day. It’s sunny with a cool wind that teases you into wearing your hoodie. In my perfect day I would be up around 8:30, pick up all my friends around lunch, go out and eat with them at a Mexican restaurant, bring them back to my house and hang outside jamming to music until dark when we would cram ourselves with my family into our living room and watch an action movie, with the surround sound turned all the way up. That would be a perfect day. Oh yeah, and they could all spend the night so we could stay up into the wee hours of the morning being absolute idiots, swapping jokes, secrets, music, lines… oh yeah. Dude, that would be awesome!

Gabe is over here this morning. Josiah woke me up by bringing him into my room and he yelled “Janell!” yerp. That’s what he calls me. Janell. It’s cute. He was running around with a toy dinosaur after I got up, making it growl and bite people. The problem is that he’s about waist height to Josiah, so he runs over to him and says “’niosaur bite Siah!” and proceed to “bite” Josiah with the toy dinosaur and Josiah give a little boy squeal and yells “WHOA man, watch out Gabe, you almost castrated me!” Yes… Saturday mornings for the Frankland family. I’m telling you guys, we are a lot of fun. As weird as we may look, I promise a day spent with my family isn’t a day wasted.

My grandma broke her ankle last week. So if you guys would be praying for fast recovery for her, she had surgery and had a plate and some bolts out in. big deal! She seriously broke the dang thing! So if you guys would just keep her in your prayers, we would all appreciate it. =] she’s doing good, she’s at home and we’ve been going down there a day or two every week. She only lives 45 minutes away so it’s not bad. But it’s crazy! She broke it bad! -laughs- I don’t even know why I’m laughing… it isn’t funny!

Gosh, you people are boring… Ima go watch O Brother, Where Art Thou? Catch you kids later!

Oh man, I thought my week 3 weeks ago was drama-laced…this week has been even worse. I can’t believe that it’s already been an entire week since my horrible weekend that started last Friday. Believe it or not I’m not going to talk about it because it was basically a weekend of hell. I don’t think I’ve ever cried that much in those 3 days than I have in, like, 3 weeks! It was a horrific weekend. Look up horrific, that’s the perfect word. Seriously, prayer is the only thing you guys can do for me, and I would really appriciate it. And to those of you that I've already asked to be praying I just say thank you, thank you so much. It means way more to me than you know. =] Anyway, Andrew and Amanda Hein and baby A.J. came down for the week, they got here late Thursday night I believe it was, it was a ton of fun having them in. even Joseph came down on Tuesday for a few days, he left on Thursday though. Andrew and Amanda have been married for a little over a year now, and A.J. is 7 months old. He’s so cute! I got some awesome pictures over the weekend. All of the Vaughn’s are great friends with the Hein’s so they were all over here almost all week. Hannah stayed at our house probably 4/5 of the week. It was awesome. =] Andrew and Amanda stayed in my room, I wish they didn’t have to leave but I’m really glad to have my room back. Today is the first time I’ve really been in it in 8 days.-laughs- I ‘recorded’ some of my favorite moments from the week, they might not be funny to you guys but they made me laugh. I’m going to post some of them. =]

Daniel Vaughn regarding nose rings- “I hate those things, they’re not attractive and they look like frikin boogers.”

Andrew’s comment to my “why-wearing-stuff-with-skulls-on-it-is-so-pointless” argument-“Why do you have pictures of an insane psychopathic murderer on your wall hmmm?”

Bethany on our way home from Wal-Mart-“I hate sneezing when I drive.”

Daniel regarding the movie The Patriot-“Danielle have you seen The Patriot?... Oh wait, it has Heath Ledger in it so I’m sure you have…”

Amanda regarding my room-“Danielle I love your room! It’s so cute! I took pictures of it!”

Some DannaHannah one-liner jokes-

“That was definitely not candy…”

“OOOH! That felt sooo good!”

Baby A.J. was so happy, Hannah and I had so much fun with him! I taught him stanky legg and Hannah and I taught him The Potion, it was hilarious! He would do this baby cackle thing at exactly the right time for the beat, it was awesome! X] So much fun.

...And don't apologize for all the tears you've cried. You've been way too strong now for all your life...-Closer to Love by Mat Kearney

So last weekend had its low points and it had its high points. The basketball “kick-off” on Monday was really good, though not really for the basketball part, more the before and after parts. Basketball has been pretty good so far, I’m really sore today.-laughs- but it’s been going good. So far anyway. =]

…Move out the way cuz there ain't nobody drivin'. Ghostride the whip, Yeah I'm dancin' on the hood…-Ghostride the Whip by Family Force 5

The song Fly Away by Grits is my God song right now, it’s kind of how I feel God is speaking to me right now, there’s a line that says I wish we could fly away, I’d take you somewhere far away and that’s what I feel God is saying to me right now. Telling me that right now at this point in my life I need to focus on him. That’s hard but I’m working on it. =] I like to answer the question How’s Life? with a strong Terrific! but right now life is just OK. Tolerable. Bearable. Endurable I guess. It’s a little sucky in parts, and really good in others, so that makes it endurable instead of just plain Not Good. I’m working through it though, there’s a ray of hope shining through, to sound like a song lyric. X]

I hate growing up. Certain points in growing up. I really hate ‘em. But then other things about growing up are awesome. Absolutely awesome. There’s a happy medium. Somewhere in there, there’s a happy medium. Just a thought.

…I'll begin to remember to be alive. So if you don't mind I think I'll wear my heart on my sleeve 'cause I'm tired of not being able to bleed-All of Us by Blindside

You know that song “Anticipation”? I don’t even know if that’s the actual name, but you know what song I’m talking about. The old soft rock one, “Anticipation...oooo…” That’s my theme right now. I so cannot wait for next week. So much awesome stuff happening. We’ve got a basketball “kick off” meeting, which doesn’t make any sense at all because there is no kicking involved in basketball unless it’s the kind that comes with a bad temper and usually gets you “kicked off” the court -laughs-, that’s on Monday and I’m hoping that there will be time for us playah’s to have a scrimmage. And then Tuesday we start basketball, then Wednesday is enrichment registration and It’s at the park so it’ll be really crazy -laughs- and then I don’t really know what else, but the rest of the week is packed -laughs-, it’ll be fun though! “Anticipation…”

At the hospital today visiting a friend of the family, my huge friend Greg[he’s like 6’5” I swear and married, he actually lives in my neighborhood] was cracking me up so bad. He acts like a teen, it’s so funny! Today his dad was complaining about not being able to look at something on the internet while he was in the hospital and Greg gives him a weird look and tells him “Dad, just use your iTouch and get on the internet, this is the 21 century.” And his dad tells him “Well they don’t have Wi-Fi here.” And Greg gives this look of disbelief and says “They don’t have Wi-Fi?! That’s gay!!!!!” And seriously, coming from a 30 something man, it was hilarious! Man, I laughed so hard.

So Friday night Hannah came over and we chilled out for a while, swapping music, and then we cleaned my room. See, that’s why I love that gurl! Because she comes over and helps me clean my room -laughs-. And we didn’t just clean it… man we like sanitized the dang thing. I swear we took everything off the walls, shelves, floor, and we ended up having about 4 trash bags full of crap we threw away. It was awesome -laughs- my room looks naked now though, I’m probably going to get another Joker poster, can’t ever have enough of those dudes. =] You are my hero Hannah Vaughn.

So I actually typed all that yesterday but I fell asleep on my laptop and never posted it. so here’s the rest of the entry. =]

Today in the store my lil’ bro cracked me up, it’s me and j-man getting some groceries when he turns and says to me, “Danielle! I just saw a dude with the coolest hoodie on! It was all covered in flames and…flaming and stuff… and the dude was cool. He was black… which -insert laugh- I thought was awesome…” Oh my gosh I was laughing so hard. Just the way he said it. “Which…ha… I thought was awesome.” Oh the little things in life that make our day.

I’ve probably got more I want to say, but I’m attempting to watch a movie and type at the same time and…it’s not working. -laughs- I’ll post sometime soon I guess. =]

...Because I don't know if I take that chance just where it's gonna lead…- Usher

…Just dance. Gonna be okay… Dance. Dance. Dance. Just dance.. [my answer to everything -laughs-]

Whooo… This has been a drama laced week… Wait, strike that and make it MONTH. It’s just been crazy. Good crazy… And bad crazy too… Actually -laughs- the best word I can think of to describe this past month is AUGHHHH! But it sounds cooler when I say it rather than type it… I feel kind of like I’m ironing out a bunch of kinks in life. And my iron is malfunctioning. -laughs- But that’s also life and I’m not dealing with anything no one else hasn’t dealt with before. =] It works out in the end. So I’m told.

Yesterday, being Saturday, there was a baby shower for a lady and it was at Hannah’s house so I went with my mom and Hannah and I ended up sneaking chocolate covered strawberries and cupcakes into her room and staying there the entire time -laughs- We had much needed gurl talk and a jam session so it was sweet. I miss that chick. So after that I came home and Micaela and I helped mom make a red velvet cake because today, being Sunday, is my mom’s birthday and red velvet is her fav. Aaand after that I think I pretty much chilled out, played with Heath, looked up some stuff, just chilled. That was yesterday, and last night we watched E.T. -laughs- that movie is so weird. And then we watched Gladiator, which I had never seen actually. I liked it a lot, I needed a movie with action in it -laughs- I fell asleep last time I watched Matrix, I needed a new big action movie. =]

We start school back on the 14^th of September, I did a little bit of school all through the summer, but it wasn’t a bunch. I’m glad we don’t start back soon though, I mean I’m kind of ready to get back on the road with stuff, but I’m glad I still have a little bit of a break.

So work it going good, life is good, um… if I added it up right -laughs- then I’ll be 17 in 122 days… that’s kind of weird… yerp… I haven’t blogged in so long. Enrichment starts back up in like, 2 or 3 weeks, so does basketball, don’t know exactly how I feel about that… kind of mixed feelings I guess. I want to play again, but it took so much of my time, and working two jobs and starting school back and doing enrichment… I don’t know -laughs- it’s going to be a little crazy… OH YEAH! I totally forgot! You guys aren’t going to believe this, are you ready? My family is adopting! Like, I’m not kidding! From a country called Kazakhstan. The kid will probably be around 1-3 years old, and we’re thinking a girl, though I think I’d rather have a boy… but honestly -laughs- I don’t care. But it’s like, EXCITING! We’ve sent in the paperwork, now the hard part is that we have to wait for months probably while the adoption house sets everything up. Seriously, are ya’ll pumped? I AM! I’m going to be the oldest of 5! Weird!! Oh yeah, Jeremiah is taller than me. Changing subject off of that now because I’m still a little ticked. This is my not-amused-face. >=| yeah back to adoption though, -laughs- it’s going to be so awesome. I can’t wait.

Hmm… anything else to talk about? Nooooo I don’t think so… um, birthdays I guess…

15^th-Joe Jonas, ya’ll want to see one of the funniest videos ever, go look up Joe Jonas Single Ladies Dance on Youtube, so stupid it made me laugh all day

16^th- Steve Carell, because you crack me up

17^th- Davy Crockett ♫Daveeeeeey! Daaaaaavy Crockett! King of the wild frontier!♫ That used to be my favorite movie!

22^nd - Alan, I totally can’t think of anything witty to say, so just Happy Birthday! I guess -laughs-

22^nd - Nash, hope you had a good day fatty. I doubt you even read this, but happy b-day anyway =]

23^rd- Madre, I love you! Seriously, I can’t wait to eat that cake… and you’d better hide the chocolate you got because I’m going to eat it. like… seriously… I’m going to eat it. I mean I’m getting off the couch right now. The chocolate is in my hand.

Ooooook so I think I’m going to go get something to eat, my dad is making dinner=] but it’s not ready yet and actually, I haven’t had anything to eat yet today -laughs- not a smart idea…

This is a Call-TFK

He tells everyone a story,
because he thinks his life is boring,
and he fights so you won't ignore him,
because that's his biggest fear,
and he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it.
He loves, but he's scared to use it.
So he hides behind the music, 'cause he likes it that way.
He knows
He's so much more than worthless,
he needs to find the surface,
because he's starting to get nervous

--

We’re calling out to you, this is a call; this is a call out,
'Cause every time I fall down, I reach out to you,
and I'm losing all control now, and my hazard signs are all out,
I'm asking you, to show me what this life is all about

Dang, blogging is quickly becoming a thing of my past… and I don’t like it! I’ll eventually post a REAL blog entry, but for now I guess this is it. ha, sorry!

Birthday time foo’s

10^th- Spencer J! I will never, ever forget your b-day li’l bro. again anyway heh. Glad you had a good day my big li’l bro.

11^th- Kelci gurlfren, I love you so much! Though I have to say I would have picked Mexican, not Chinese food haha.

11^th- Ben Jammin! Thank you for always being my go-to guy when I needed boy advice Ben, and thank you Han for sharing your big bro with me haha. Happy b-day Ben.

12^th- Bekah, hope you had a great day Bek! I think I have the right date, I’m pretty sure the 12^th was your b-day haha.

13^th- Alfred Hitchcock. I have no idea why I’m giving you a shout-out for your b-day, I guess I’m afraid you might sic’ your birds on me if I don’t. =]

Ok I promise I’ll get a real update on here soon. I’m not sure there’s anyone that reads these anymore, so I’m not too worried. =]

Lord, my heart is yours

I give it to you freely

With grace like rain, it pours

Your love envelops me

 I stand amazed by your Mercy

Your voice has set me free

I chose to give you everything

When I felt your love envelop me

Where the river flows

That’s where I’ll chose to be

God, I feel your presence

Your love is so surrounding

I want to share my joy

I want the world to see

That I chose to give you everything

When I felt your love envelop me

I have an update written up but it’s not finished so for a teaser here’s the pics from today’s bowling experience. I can’t decide if that was fun or just insane. Good memories… and some embarrassing ones. =} So I’ll get and update on here when I can. I’m leaving for Kansas tomorrow for the IHOP conference so I won’t be able to update until I get back. So probably Tuesday or Wednesday.

Catch you Shwaty’s later!

[The pic's are in this album, at the end.]

July-2009

Happy birthdays! I plan on making a birthday post for everyone I know who has a birthday. At least for the next two months, because every stinkin’ person I know has a birthday in the month of July and August. Soooo today-

Claire on the Cobb- can’t believe I didn’t know yesterday was your birthday, so sorry! Have a happy.

Tom Hanks- crack me up man. Have a happy.

Mitchell Musso- heh heh heh. Have a happy Mitch. [Did you know he was born in Garland? I have family in Garland! HEHE! He was also in an episode of Walker, Texas Ranger which cracks me up. That means Chucky boy probably taught him his signature, mean roundhouse kick to the head. Don’t mess with Mitchell…]

Anywaaaays… keep it cool

Guess what? I’m getting a Facebook!

Gotcha.

“And I thought my jokes were bad…” You got excited for a minute there didn't ya?

I don’t ever want to hear a boy complain about puberty and their voice changing again. We have 4 new chickens, and they’re in “teenage” level right now. And they sound absolutely hilarious! There are two roosters and they crow all the time, but it’s so sad and pathetic, it sounds like someone’s strangling them! Guys think it sounds funny when their voices change, well it’s nothing compared to a rooster! No more complaining to me, God could have made it so ya’ll sound like teenage roosters. Besides, every girl I know, including me, doesn’t think it sounds bad at all for your voice to crack. Don’t stress about it so much. As a matter of fact I like it when guys’ voices crack! Don’t ask me why, I just think it sounds neat.

I Maroon 5’s song I Won’t Go Home Without You. I like the beat. Believe it or not! That’s not usually the kind of beat I like, but it’s a neat song. The music video is sappy though. It’s cool until the end and it just… ends. It’s just like… over and it leaves you feeling depressed! Makes me[wonder] mad! Seriously though, I really like the song.

So I had this recent conversation with a guy about finding the “one person” God has for you. Because I believed that it wasn’t right to go searching for someone, trying people out until you found your “type.” It kind of made me feel like that basically compared girls and guys to like… brands of soda. Gotta try each one out to find the kind I like best. Well how the heck does that work? It really frustrated me! The more I thought about it I got more and more angry so I asked my mom about it. To see what her view on it was. And Bam-Slam “Thank you ma’am!” she said basically the same thing he did! Some important facts were different in her opinion, but I was so miffed! I was seriously ticked! I guess I was thinking that it kind of seemed like a slam to God if you went “out looking” for someone, I mean [I hate to throw a bible verse at you] Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I guess I always took that as meaning, “I’ve got everything under control. You don’t have to worry about anything.” I mean, a hope and a future? That means that everything I want, a good guy, kids, my own house, a perfect life, God’s going to provide all that for me… right? I thought that going out and looking on your own was kind of like saying, “I don’t trust you God, I’ll handle this on my own.” That’s what it seems like it is right? Wrong! I didn’t realize it until after my conversation-cough-argument [that I LOST dang snap…] but that verse does not mean he’s going to give me everything I want. I still don’t agree with trying people out. Yes, I [now] believe that I’m going to have to find someone, I mean God’s not going to drop a ribbon-wrapped guy on my front door with a note that says “To: Danielle Frankland, Here’s your Prince Charming!” It won’t be that easy. But I also don’t believe that I need to go around dating people, trying them out, breaking hearts, playing around, having fun 24/7, doing my own thing to find the “guy of my dreams.” I don’t think it’s worth it to risk doing something really stupid all for the sake of finding the guy for me. But I understand now, it’s not getting handed to me on a silver platter. I look back now and think on what it was I believed and I’m like… HAHA! You idiot! Did you really think it was going to be that easy? You dork. But seriously, it weird that I thought that. I honestly think that I’d never thought of it in that certain way enough to realize how stupid my thinking was. So I guess, in conclusion, I understand what you’re saying mom, and what you’re saying, un-named dude from who this conversation started. I get it now. Though there are still some things you both said that I’m shaky on, not quite sure if I agree with that. But thats a different argument, a different time eh? =] En garde.

It’s not over tonight

Just give me one more chance to make it right

I may not make it through the night

I won’t go home without you

I need to go to bed because I’ve gotta[feeling] get up eeeeeearly tomorrow. I’m working till 5 tomorrow, so I’m going to go get my stuff set out so I can just stumble out of bed and into the car. Lol.

Keep it real guys.

Seriously, I love you all. You’re beautiful. –clicks tongue-